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Thu, 05 Nov 2009 05:22:02 GMT

Does anyone even read these? I'm figuring not, since Xanga is dead and this site was only popular until about 2005 when MySpace came out. Now, MySpace died and Twitter and Facebook are teh shit. LOL. Anyways, that was kinda random.

So, I've decided to use this for my personal usage then, since I doubt anyone reads this anymore (If you do, leave a comment! I'd be like ZOMG WOW!). But yeah, nothing really big to report. I made Molly mad last night cause she wanted some dude to come over and fuck her (dude has a gf btw), and for some reason, the dude was scared to be seen in order for him not getting caught (he thought I knew his faggot ass or something and would tell his gf, even though I don't know him and I can careless what he does lol). So he wanted me to not see him. So Molly wanted me to go in my room and wait for like 20 mins til he gets settled in. And I'm just kinda like "LMAO!!! You've gotta be KIDDING me!" First off, I can really careless who Molly brings over and fucks. Her business, not mine. Secondly, I don't think she understands this, but this is MY APARTMENT! Mine. My name is on the lease, not her's anywhere. On top of that, she pays 1/3 of the rent here. That's it. She doesn't really do anything here but waste of electric bills. So, you're gonna try to tell ME what to do? Excuse me, but last time I checked, the whole reason I DID move out was to not have people tell me what to do or who to bring over. You really think I'm going to listen to you? LOL It was funny. She got all mad cause I wouldn't go into my room. But, I mean, seriously, why would you even ask something like that to someone? Would you let someone shady walk into your crib, that you work all day for, just to come do that? And for me to play hide-and-go-seek all day? But yeah, now she's not talking to me and blah blah but I can careless. I'm pretty sure I'm kicking her out in January. (if not sooner). I'm not liking how she tries to be a control freak with me, but it ain't happening here.

Anyways, work is going well. Fingers crossed but hopefully some good stuff will happen soon. One of our co-workers is leaving tomorrow, pretty sad though cause she was extremely nice, and friendly. It's going to be different. Lord, help Freddie Mac, though. It's still a mess over there lol. Things change within every hour. Poor company.

Anyways, I'm tired as heck. This weekend I'm going to ODU's homecoming dance. It should be awesome too cause the girl who I'm going with kinda rocks my socks. :) But we'll see what happens. We had a little something going on, and hopefully things will get better.

School is going well. Can't wait to graduate. Other than that, not much else to say. All of my friends are doing well. Started up SMF again. So all of that is good. I'm just so happy I've been so blessed the latter part of 2009. Early 2009 was so meh. But God blessed me this year with just good things coming my way. Makes me really happy.

Well, it is one am and I'm falling asleep. Night Xanga, whoever is reading this!

Wow...MEGAUPDATE

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 06:07:35 GMT

Wow, my oh my, where do I even begin?

Here I am, sitting here in my very own apartment, about 2 and a half years later from the last time I updated this thing. Boy, my life sure has changed since then, hasn't it?

First off, let's recap the last half of 2007 til now early 2009, huh?

-Summer 2007 was pretty good, had lots of fun.
-SMF EXPLODED during that summer.
-In the fall, I went to George Mason University
-I absolutely hated it, yet, just liked being home at the same time.
-I also went to NOVA during that same time.

-2008 was very, very, meh. I just remember not working during the first half of the year (besides this temp job I took at this company called Rivermine)
-Summer of 2008 was pretty horrid. Didn't go anywhere due to the gas prices being like 384848484 per gallon.
-I got a job at Bearing Point, and I could have stayed there too, but I left because I realized how much GMU sucked ass, so in the fall of 2008 I made plans to go back to Norfolk to go to ODU.
-That didn't turn out so well. I paid $1200 to stay in my friends house for one night. Wow.
-Ended up finding out about ODU's Northern Virginia Center. Beating two birds with one stone! (Staying in the NOVA area for a good job+Still going to ODU and not crappy Mason)
-Went to the NVC at ODU, worked at Red Robin for a month, where I got hit on by triffling Manassass skanks who went nowhere with life and smoked a lotta weed.
-Went to Anime USA 2008, where we recorded scenes for my personal favorite SMF show I have ever done, Bitchamania 2008. Had a BLAST!
-Got a job at Freddie Mac, where I've been working at ever since.
-Christmas 2008 was meh. But decent.

2009:
See, this is where things get funky. The first half of 2009 consisted of just...craziness. In school, I took this one class, DSCI 306 where our teacher was a nutcase. Always telling us to do this and do that and then not making any sense, accusing me of cheating. (heh) etc. Also, personally, I was starting to feel like I'm getting too old to live with my parents, so the entire year I'm yearning for an escape by looking for an apartment. Yesh, I've had plans to move out ever since January with Adele.

Speaking of Adele, 2009 totally killed us completely. You see, the first few months of the year, things were great and dandy. But around March, I was already starting to tell...this was going to end. Soon. I wanted out. I'm not sure what happened, but I think I just came to a point where I wanted to be single so I can have some "me" time. But when I tried to break up with her, I couldn't do it. I punked out. I think what scared me the most was that I would lose my best friend in the process of all of that. I didn't want to be in a relationship with her. Sure the EHHH was great, in fact, we even had....uhhh....trio action :). But, that couldn't save it alone. I think I just grew tired of my relationship, but I did NOT want to ruin our friendship. Cause we knew everything about each other and she was the easiest person to talk to. Bottom line, she GOT me. She understood me. That's something that's hard to find in someone.

Anyways, Cinco de Mayo, some crazy stuff went down. I don't even feel like getting into it anymore, but let's just say May really totally sucked for me. For the first time ever in my life, I think I really suffered from depression.

That lasted for all of a week, til I went to Miami and had the greatest time ever with my boys, James and Fredi. Such a marvelous trip that I will never etch out of my memory. After that trip, I adopted a new philosophy in life. Why worry about the future, live for now? So, that's exactly what I've been doing. Living for now. Living for me. Also, spiritually, I've been praying and turning to God a lot more than I have. So if anything, May's fiasco was a wake-up call in my life. I still to this day, regret losing my best friend. But other than that, no regrets whatsoever, everything happens for a reason. And I believe that.

So July rolls around, I meet this one girl outta nowhere. Ayawa. She's this black chick who grew up in Saudi Arabia. Unfortunately, when she came over here to America, she brought her Saudi ways with her. You see, what annoyed me the most about her was that...she didn't ever know how to have fun. She thought everything was taboo. If I made fun of Africa, she'd get mad. (Uhh I'm black!) If I had a 2 drinks and she only had one, she'd get mad and call me an alcoholic. If she saw a text on my phone simply saying "I had a good night, thanks for hanging out", she'd assume I was cheating and get mad (despite that being a family member I haven't seen in forever). She also had a strange tendency to seriously say that "The man is the one wearing the pants in this relationship". She was totally submissive, and I HATED it. She had no backbone, she was always odd around my friends, she made me uncomfortable. The ehhh was okay, but it didn't help. In August when I moved into my own apartment, she'd act like she was the maid here, cleaned up all the time, cooked. Idk, to me, it bothered me. I like my relationships being 50/50. Not that 90/10 crap she likes. So, it just didn't work out. I broke up with her.

Since then, I've been playing the single game. I've recently reconnected with one of my old co-workers from my very first job, and we've been chillin/talking for the past month or so. She's pretty awesome, but just letting things roll naturally with that one. Other than her, I've just been doing my thing. I'm in my last semester of college, graduating. And sticking with my job at Freddie Mac, and I have my own place, soon to save up for a house in a year and to buy my first new car here pretty soon. Honestly, I'm really content with my life. I have no real complaints. All of my friends are cool with eachother, I have a great life.

Barack Obama called it last year, 2009 was a year of change. I've had SOOOO many changes in my life the past year, it's ridiculous. I would have never seen this coming a year ago, and yet here I am. With that being said, I've had some recent great experiences too, Miami, our random roadtrips to places, recconnecting with old friends, I really have no complaints right now at all. I'm just hoping to grow on from all of these changes. Like someone always said, everything happens for a reason. Maybe, just maybe, that everything that has happened now has made it possible for me to be extremely grateful for everything that I have now in my life.

Whew, this was long,

Friday, May 18, 2007

Fri, 18 May 2007 17:44:27 GMT

This semester sucked ass. I'm happy it's over with. It was just very boring and nothing good happened. The shootings at VT ended the semester and idk I'm just happy it's over. I don't go to ODU no more, I transferred to Mason to save me some money. Plus ODU's housing filled up in like a day so i was like screw that. Imma miss it down there though a little bit, I'm not gonna lie it was an okay place. ODU, as a whole, I just didn't really care for it like I thought I would. It's a good school don't me wrong, but idk My roomates were cool, Rich and Eric. Not my 45 year old african dude though, he was ...meh. Dirty as hell and made a bunch of weird chanting noises at night and during the day, I'm glad I'm away from him. But I am back doing the Axiom thing right now, and probably going to transfer soon. It's great bring home with all my friends and not having to worry about driving two hours on weekends to come home anymore. The only thing that sucks is the fakeones, the ones who are like"yea we'll chill" and then...they never do....o_O Next semester at Mason, though, I need to kick some ass on my grades. I'm shooting for straight A's if possible. SMF is still going strong and is growing somehow, which is weird cause I didn't kno it would get that big in 5 months of being online. It has turned into a hobby but I will end it in the summer so I can get out while I'm on top. I have a blast doing it though, and doing the "Bob Ross" voice. Dang I need to major in film or something, since I can actually do it pretty well. Oh well. Okay Xanga bores me now. Peace P.S. I notice noone reads this thing anymore, but it's okay, it's good for me imo to have and read my thoughts during these times.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 23:25:35 GMT

As I went home this weekend, I took a visit to Potomac Mills mall. We were bored on a Sunday and didn't feel like going home and just sitting there and doing nothing. We notice that like everyone and their mom has on Virginia Tech stuff on, and I thought "I'm glad that people are showing support of the school like that". But as I wondered around the mall some more, I noticed I would pass stores that had Virginia Tech merchandise at the very front of the store, and a LOT of it. Then I thought, wow. It's a damn shame these stores are trying to capitalize on a tragedy by making some extra cash off this so-called tragedy to them. I mean, think about it, people are buying up VT merchandise like people buy Santa Claus crap for Christmas....Tragedy=Money! Cha-ching! I just think it's so shameful that companies find the need to make profits off people who died for nothing. That, and how the media has blown this thing up. I mean, sure, they deserve to have coverage because a shooting like that in schools is unheard of, but to show the damn crazy killer every single second on the news, showing off his pictures of him with a gun to his head or with a hammer or with a gun pointing to the camera, do you think the victims families want to see that crap??? They gave EXACTLY what that stupid bastard wanted, ATTENTION! Now, we get all these copycats people trying to imitate what he did by threatening other schools in the nation...retarded. Here at ODU we had a threat for a shooting that shut down our campus last Wednesday. The media just should concentrate on the victims, rather than trying to blame the President of Virginia Tech. Sure, IMO I think they could have done more to find Cho after the first shooting, but VT is a HUGE campus. HUGE! I thought ODU was big, but ODU is like half the size of VT, literally....Bah, I just hate how the media and companies portray a tragic event. I mean, this can happen to us easily anytime, anywhere, not just school.

But I'm glad everyone I know turned out to be okay. I just wish all this retarded nonsense and violence would end. It's so silly. Anyways, one week and a day or two and I'm out of here! Can't wait! This semester was crap. School is crap, it's a waste of time IMO. Suck my thigh. Peace

Monday, April 16, 2007

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 18:22:41 GMT

dang i keep forgetting i have this site, it's such a waste of time to write in cause noone reads it nor have a xanga anymore. but since february, i think the biggest thing i did so far was go to wrestlemania 23 in detroit and to canada the weekend of march 30th-april 1. On friday march 30th it was me and adeles 2 year anniversary, and we were trying to go home but got stuck in traffic for HOURS just to get from crappy hampton to home. then we left friday night and went to ohio to spend the night there at the hotel. it was a fun ride up there, we recorded much footage in the trip. me, adele, josh, jeff, alex went, alongside the two retards joey and daniel, who shouldn't have went. saturday we went to white castle, which was good and then went up to canada later in the day, and geez just to get into the country was tough. they do a big search in the car, bags, everything. BUT canada was awesome. idk why it was, but it was...so many nice people there and everyone was so laid back. i enjoyed it. cept when daniel got lost at a casino and we had to wait for him for 2 hours. i loved all the eh's and the canadian accents, it's so weird how canada is only like 8 hours away from home. sunday was wrestlemania 23 and we had some decent seats, and i enjoyed the show overall. cena won again and it made everyone mad, it ruined the entire show. but the MITB and the batista undertaker match were the ones that stole the show. the ecw match was def a piss break, it was so gay but oh well, they need to push RVD more, and get rid of those WWECW people, like lashley, blah, oh yeah vince got his head shaved bald. that was funnah.

then monday we came home. the end.. then back to crappy norfolk. i the semester is almost over, we only have like 2 weeks to go. cept i have an exam that all end on april 29th, but i have ONE FREAKIN EXAM that is on may 3rd, so that means, imma be wasting my time down here for like 4 or 5 days to take one final exam, so gay, i may just go home.

today there was a school shooting at virginia tech, i hope eeryone is okay. i hate people that kill people for no damn reason, so selfish and retarded. so far, the people i know at VT are okay, so that's good....hopefully nothing else bad happens...

well....yea...peace

Monday, February 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 04:24:10 GMT

i haven't updated this in a while. this month has sucked so far but this weekend made up for it. for the first time i went to an anime convention with everyone called katsucon, and it was actually fun.there were people who were dressed up and for some reason it was all normal to me so it didn't bother me. we got a hotel room up in dc and friday night we all ordered pizza and drank and then went to this rave, which is basically a dance with techno instead of that crappy garbage "rap" and r&b crap they play in clubs nowadays. and let me tell you, going to a rave drunk is freakin awesome. everyone was going crazy, it was awesomeness. saturday we like did everything, watched anime stuff, went to the game room, chilled, basically everything we could do there, we did. it was fun and then on sat night people were getting drunk but not me and went to another rave. jeff stayed up til 5 in the morning at the rave and we watched some anime porn and laughed at it. those jap people are crazy. but we all stayed in the hotel at like 2 and just chilled. but yeah def have to check the next one out, oktacon(spelling?) in july. i don't even like anime and i thought it was awesome. but yeah now i'm back at homosexual odu with all this stupid BS work to do. i can't wait for 2 years to just fly by.

am i the only one who thinks college is a waste of time and would rather just have a degree and work already? i seriously think college is overrated(i'm talking about parties, having freedom, etc)..

Random Thoughts, January 2007

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 18:43:29 GMT

I haven't done a random thoughts post in a while, I don't think I've done one in all of 2006. I like these because I can look back on this and reflect what the heck I was thinking in January of 2007.

Why was it such a struggle to get into a college-level high school math class? I think placement tests are horrible ways to assess a student's knowledge in math.
Why is it that when I go to the cafeteria, I see all these people eating SO unhealthy it's not even funny. Then when I pass the gym, I NEVER see a black girl up there, yet they're some of the main people I hear who complain about being too big.
Why is rap music becoming worse and worse and the years go by? Whatever happened to raps when someone rapped about something intelligent, or important, not about how you have some money in the bank, or that you're hustling everyday. I don't care.
Why is my Bio teacher such a flaming lesbian? Really short hair, kinda butchy, manly voice, and in our note slides, she puts random pictures of Xena Warrior Princess and that girl that she was supposedly in love with...she even kinda hinted at it today in class...we were like wtf?
Why do more single girls add me on MySpace when my thing says I'm single, yet I have many indicators saying that I love Adele on my profile?
Speaking of which, why are girls nicer to me when Adele is not with me? But when she's there, they won't say that much?
Another speaking of which, why has my freakin MySpace and Xanga caused so much crap this past month? Where people get offended by things put up there 7 months ago...and then expect me to take it down and actually CHECK to see if I did or didn't LOL. Seriously, it's the internet...but wait, it's serious business...
Why is it that when I am genuinely nice and honest to Alayna and Tom(c'mon, I took a whole weekend off from school, drove all the way 200 miles back home and spent my money on a present for them, and canceled plans with people in Norfolk just so I could go to their wedding), they were rude and mean to me for no apparent reason...yet, when I say something to counter them being rude to me, I am the worst person in the world and I can never be forgiven? I'm just gonna be evil to everyone from now on...
Why did I come down to ODU when I could be at home working and whatnot going to Mason?
Why is WWE garbage now? Every RAW for the past year consists of Cena coming to the ring, then he feuds with someone for like 2 months(K-fed, Umaga) and on SmackDown! it's basically Teddy Long going "Tonight, you will go one-on-one...with DA UNDATAKAHH!!!"What happened to back in the day when I was excited for Mondays and Thursdays?
Why does this school thrive on people joining frats or sororities? Can people not make friends anymore like they did K-12 instead of having to pay 800 bucks for them these days?
Why do I have 5 tests/quizzes in the 3rd week of me being back in school?
Why is my new roommate like 45 years old?
Why is March, 31st 2003 still one of the best nights?
Why does it never snow in Norfolk? That makes me sad
Where are the 2000's going to? I remember when it just turned 2000 and now it's 2007, seven years has gone by...crazy.
I realize that I like to think too much, especially about future things, but I never concentrate on the present. Is that a bad thing?
I know why I'm on this site...I'm procrastinating my bio homework...lol
Why is MustangForums.com dead to me now?
well, That's all for now...

Don't like it, get the F out...

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 04:17:49 GMT

There, it is hidden, only for Adele and 3 others to see. now alayna, stop hitting on my site and stay off my big black penis. This post will NOT be deleted, this is to show that I do what I want, post what I want, when I want. If I want to put something about Alayna being an immature brat, Tom not getting over something that happened 6 months ago, My ass, JR's ass, March 31st, 2003, dog shit, George Bush, how much the new Mustang's are wack, how awesome Jared is from Subway, sex, I will post it. If you don't like it, fine. Whatever, this is my xanga, you know a site where I post my thoughts to people. I am allowed to do that here and noone will stop me from doing that. But disrespect me again, and more severe and harsher things than before will be up here. This is your only warning. If I hear anything about this again from Fredi or anyone, the previous post will be made public and another will be thrown up here too just for the hell of it cause I'm awesome like that. I was being VERY generous before, please don't make me any madder about this situation.

Thanks.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 07:46:56 GMT

My 2007 New Year's Revolutions

-Get a GOOD job in Norfolk
-Transfer out of ODU and go to Mason in the fall
-Stop trying to talk to people who I try to see and hang out with when they can't turn around and call me once in a while unless they need something, psh.
-Continue to be happy with Adele
-Hopefully save up enough money to move out into a nice apt when I go to Mason.
-Keep a good job up here
-Stay keeping up with my grades
-To keep my head up, no matter what obstacles may come my way
-To keep being appreciative of my great family, and teaching me morals of doing things on my own rather than having mommy and daddy hand down everything to their kids and not appreciate stuff.
-To buy John Madden's game! I still don't have it yet.
-Continue to stay in shape (as I type this, I am eating Starbursts right now at 3:45 in the morning)
-Keep kicking ass with the SMF project.
-To have more money saved up by the end of this year
-To stay the same during the year and never change.

Those are my New Year Revolutions for 2007. 2006 was a great year, full of lots of great times, while some bad ones. If I could live this year over again, I probably would. And I wouldn't change a damn thing about it either (well, besides picking that crappy accounting teacher I had but ...)

Hope everyone had a safe, happy, new years...

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 07:47:58 GMT

i am so happy that we had a break for thanksgiving. i came home on wednesday night an chilled with josh at his house all night. on thanksgiving me and adele had a fight because her dad can't seem to get over stuff that happened way back in june over the way he acted and the way i'm "supposed" to respond to how he reacted (psst, white people LOL) but thursday night i got to chill with my good pal jason at his house and with fredi. then ate and went to platinum with shellsea (who i haven't seen in forever), DDA, dominique and adele. it was good times minus the fact that random creepy dudes kept trying to dance with shellsea dominique and adele. friday i went to the mall in the first time in a year! that place still sucks though. met up with some people and then went to red robin and then met up with DDA at robert la's house for a lil party thing. saturday i forgot what i did during the day but we ended up chillin with jason and sarah and fredi for a while til fredi's girl alayna and lindsey met up with us at chili's. then we sat in the parking lot for like 20 mins for some reason then went to circuit city to look at tv's. while there, hayley met up with us and then for some reason a catfight was about to break out, which was kinda lame but okay i guess. i then met up with shellsea and we all went to sarahs house and there was still that aura of catfight in the air. idk why but it was weird. but then we went to a party at syr's house over in woodbridge with dda, tillet and a few others...chilled there til two. all in all it was a good weekend and i got to see people i haven't seen in a minute...sunday i went back to school and i didn't even feel like going there. i really didn't. i was mad that i had to go back. i still would rather not be here i can't wait for christmas..i still need a job badly though because i am po'. not even poor, just po'. sad, isn't it? oh well, does anyone know of any job openings in the city of norfolk?